Tonight...

Tonight was not easy at all. Josh was here when I got back home with Tayen. He cried and said he was sorry. I had to be firm and tell him that sorry wasn't going to cut it this time. I informed him that he needed to SHOW me that he wanted us in his life. I said that the time for acting like a single man was long over; that I didn't NEED him in my life. I told him that I could live without him, I didn't want to but I could. He didn't seem to like that too much but it's true. I will if I have to. I told him that I was not backing down this time and he needed to work things out on his own. I can't make someone do something. I can't make him be faithful. But I can show him the consequences of his actions. Last night he wanted to act like a single man, well tonight, he's got it. He had to find somewhere else to stay because it wasn't going to be here with me and Tayen. Sorry dude, until you know what you want, you're not going to drag me on an emotional roller coaster any more. Don't get me wrong, I love Josh. But I love my daughter and myself too. She can't be exposed to the drinking and whoring around. I'd rather be single and struggling, than married and unhappy.